I am trying so hard to stay positive in the face of adversity, but it is really hard. I have good days and then days sprinkled with hopelessness, fear, and despair.
It is getting harder and harder to make ends meet, especially when Alfred's income fluctuates from week to week and hours are getting harder to come by.
You see, he is paid by the job as a mechanic and not straight time. And now he is getting stuck with mostly warranty work, which pays next to nothing. He has less than five hours for the week and has Monday and Tuesday to make any time.
Sometimes it seems the harder you try to do right, the worse things become. I hope and pray things turn around soon. I don't living on the edge.