I have always been really good at procrastinating, putting everyone else's needs ahead of my own, and resisted doing new things out of fear of failure or looking ridiculous. But one can not fully live life that way and I am tired of sitting in the shadows watching everyone else play in the sunshine.
I decided that this will be the year of "I Can".
I got another haircut, a short and sassy one, because I adore short hair. I had previously spent five years growing it out because Alfred preferred long hair, but I have to live with it and care for it. Now it is a cinch to care for and looks uber-cute!
I am making positive changes in my life. I'm drinking water now instead of my favorite drink: caffiene-free soda. I am eating small meals throughout the day and limiting sugar treats. I have begun exercising again with the hope of losing the extra pounds I have accumulated over the past 5 years.
I came to the realization last night that when I was diagnosed with Rhuematoid Arthritis, I checked out on living life. RA became my excuse to not try new things/activities. Granted, I have limitations (I need plenty of rest and can not run or do high-impact exercises) - but I have allowed it to overtake my life to such a degree that life has essentially become stale and predictable.
The time has come for me to confront these false notions and regain my life back. To re-learn how to take care of myself, to listen to my body and my intuition, to discover my personal style, make time for my hobbies, and infuse my life with joy and passion.
Here's to a new year, a new me, and a year of possibilities...