Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Heart Whispers


As I approach my thirty-fifth birthday I find myself comtemplating my life thus far. I have always been reserved and worried about what others would think if I did this or that. Now I find myself feeling constricted and boxed in. I've allowed myself to become stuck in a rut and I am longing to break free from all that is holding me back.

How I will accomplish this, I do not know. I wish I had a guide-book that could tell me exactly what I must do, but, alas, there is no such thing. So I am left to my own devices, blindly forging a new path, a new life. A life of rediscovery and unearthing my authencity. I think the only thing that will help is solitude. I need to pull away from everything for a time in order to hear the whispers of my heart.

Let the journey begin...

10 comments:

Mama Monique said...

Hi Tracy,

really want to say: lóve to read this story. It's about the same feeling I had a little while ago. I've decided to do waht I want, what I really want, and not to do what (I think) others expect me to do.

In my case the first step was to cut of my hair, I really feel free again. The second step is to follow my (our) dream.

Hope you will find your way to yourself again. I'm sure gonna follow your journey!

Greats from a 34 from Holland

With Loving Stitches said...

Life is much too short to live it within the constraints of others. If you have faith and live within the guidance that God sets for us, live to be happy. The happier you are the better off those around you will be for it. Happy almost 35th Birthday.

Lady Laurie said...

Dear Tracy ~
I think that is one of the hardest things, maybe especially for women is to follow our hearts and dreams.
Hoping you find your pot of gold at the end of your rainbow!

Sandcastle Momma said...

Let your heart be your guide. Do those things you've always wanted to do and don't worry what anyone thinks. In the end it's more important to follow your dreams than to worry about what others think!

sarah haliwell said...

good luck and many blessings in all that your choose to do. Making this realisation as you have done is the first great leap forward.

Anonymous said...

Hi Tracy, I am twice your age and decided sometime ago to be me and do what I wanted as long as I did not hurt or upset anyone along the way. It was not easy to say no when people wanted me to do what I did not really want to do but it did get easier and I feel a lot happier in myself now. I made a wish list and gradually am achieving the goals I have set. You seem as though you are achieving a lot with bringing up a young family.
Good Luck with whatever you decide to you.
Hugs, Hazel (UK)

Aunt Amelia's Attic said...

How accomplish this?

First step, give yourself permission to ponder and to change.

Been there, done that, got the T-shirt.

Good luck.

Courage!

Aunt Amelia

Aunt Amelia's Attic said...

Wondering if all those years of being constricted, by "what others would think," has had any effect on your physical issues?

Ever read "Awareness" by Anthony de Mello? Even if it's not in your library system, bet you can find one, in Amazon's New & Used Books section.

Just go to Amazon dot com and Search for "Awareness" by this author. Amazon will give you all the details.

Just saying...

Aunt Amelia

Aunt Amelia's Attic said...

Dear Anonymous, Hazel in the UK... Twice Tracy's age hu? I'm more than twice her age. :-) And it took me a lot longer than being 35, to do this! But I did it.

So happy that you too, have allowed yourself freedom. So happy! Good for you.

Good for us.

Gentle hugs,
'Aunt Amelia'
[who has comments turned off now, as I'm on a blog break... but I have an email addy - la dot attico at yahoo dot com]

cathleen said...

What an amazing photo! I am a person who needs a good measure of solitude. I LOVE to be alone. Tracy, I really enjoy reading your thoughts on bettering yourself...it inspires me to do the same.