I appreciate all of your thoughtful comments and advice yesterday! It's nice to know one is not alone. I tried talking about it with Alfred, but he just doesn't get it. It made me realize that this journey is my own and the answers are inside of me.
The sea ebbs and flows as does life. When you are in the flow, everything is wonderful, smooth, and all feels right with the world. Then there are times of ebb when one needs to pull back seeking quiet and solitude in order to hear the whispers of the heart. This is where I am at the moment. Life has become stagnant and routine and I need to fill my well and romance my creative urges.
Julia Cameron reminds us:
Transformation occurs through action.
I have been reading Joan Anderson's books - A Year by the Sea, An Unfinished Marriage, and An Unfinished Journey. I now realize that the journey is never finished. Just as the beach landscape changes with the tides, so does life. It is our choice to whether we change and flourish along with it or languish on the shore. It is not a crime to feel fear, but to allow the fear to hold us back from living is a crying shame.
Let us hold hands and dip our toes in the great sea of life, shall we?