We're six weeks in to The 12 Secrets of Highly Creative Women book study hosted by Jamie Ridler. This week is about conquering our saboteurs.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deep fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." ~Marianne Williamson
I have my moments of inadequacy. I know for a fact that I am my own worst enemy. I get swept up in fear, what ifs, doubt, and self-criticism - such a paralyzing fear that has become a vicious cycle. So much so that I dream of tornadoes and my stuffed feelings come out in panic attacks.
I can't help but wonder if my fear is that I don't know my own strength and I could indeed be powerful beyond measure. And if that is the case, people will expect more from me and what if I can not live up to their expectations?
And that leads to more questions...
Why do I feel I need to hide who I am?
Who says I can't be fabulous and live the life I dream of?
Why can't I put myself first?
Why do I feel the need to be a people-pleaser?
How does one conquer the saboteur when it is yourSelf? You take it one day at a time. You are gentle and nurturing with yourself. You create boundaries. You make time for your passions. You count your blessings.
And if all else fails, you fake it 'til you make it...