Wednesday, December 10, 2008


The time has come for me to admit that I need help with these panic attacks. I thought I could get over them on my own, but it's been going on since early July and while it's better I still dread the thought of going outside the borders of my little town. I am also struggling with depression at this time. Something must be done for this is no way to live!

I am finding that there are many others out there struggling with panic attacks - Alfred's boss, one of his sisters, my best friend. I don't know what to think of it all...

Here's what I do know - I have a wonderful husband who loves me no matter how stubborn I may be (and according to him, I'm pretty darn stubborn!). When he brought up my going to the doctor, I immediately dismissed the idea because of the money crunch. Isn't it worth it for me to seek help to feel better and resume a normal life? Yes!

I post this not for sympathy, but to let others know they are not alone in their suffering and that it is okay to ask for help and to do what is needed to take care of yourself. It's not always an easy thing to do, but it is worth it. YOU are worth it!


sarah p said...

I am glad you are getting help. Panic attacks can be conquered. Sometimes working on your breathing helps, sometimes vitamins and looking at the diet are needed, even a programme of exercise can be a good thing. I hope you find a doctor who will listen to you and support you in the best ways. In the meanwhile, (((many hugs))).

Elizabeth-Plain and Simple said...

For the past 10 years I have also suffered from a mild depression, but only in the winter months. I also have panic attacks but only when I have to venture somewhere or do something that is out of my comfort zone. I do not drive in the big cities which puts limits on where I can go by myself. I've lived with it for years and as far as the depression goes, I always know that come spring I will feel better. My depression is only mild though, and yet it interferes with my energy and desire to do all the things that I need to do. If it is interfering with your ability to have a normal life then you should seek help. And you are correct, you are worth it.


Sacred Suzie said...

Tracy, you are worth investing in. Your life is worth expanding and healing. I really hope that you get some help from your doctor, s/he might be able to help.

Can I recommend a book for you? I know how much you love to read and maybe it'll help. Paula Deen has an autobiography and she writes about her long journey in isolation and being afraid to leave her home and didn't for a long, long time. Now she is free of that fear.

Blessings to you! It is OK to ask for help. Absolutely. I've recently reached out to my old counsellor out in BC because I am having such a hard time here. There is nothing wrong with it at all.

Hugs to you! We're worth it!

Sandcastle Momma said...

Any money spent on helping yourself feel better is the best money spent! You deserve a life free from this. You'll feel better and your family will benefit as well. You'll be able to take the kids places you haven't been able to see before which will broaden their world and you and Alfred will enjoy being able to get out together. Definitely money well spent!

I read Paula Deen's book as well and it was one of the most inspiring books I've ever read. She has overcome so much and built an incredible life for herself and her family. It left me feeling that if she could do it - anyone could.

Bobbi said...

I have suffered from panic attacks since my sister died 3 years ago. At first, I thought I was going crazy. I still struggle with panic and anxiety whenever I leave my house, but my hubby, family and treatment are helping.

It's a long row to hoe, but things will eventually look up!

Natalie said...

I have had panice attacks for a few years now and thankfully they are not too bad most of the time. There are times however that they ARE really bad.
My 16 year old sister is also going through a rough spot. They think she may be bipolar though. So no you are not alone.

Caroline said...

Never be ashamed...we all need help sometimes and it's wonderful to reach out. Don't be like my Uncle that sat in his basement and drank himself to death (literally). He was to stubborn to ask for & accept help. Sorry for such a bleek example...but we all struggle. Sending you many blessings! XOXO

~~Deby said... have no idea...and would love to email you on this one ....let me know..

Mrs. Staggs said...

Hi Tracy,

You do need to go to the doctor, sweetie. Things have a way of working out, when it comes to the bill paying part of things, but my experience with most people who have panic attacks is that they can become worse over time, so take care of it early. Sometimes all it takes is something that will help correct a temporary chemical imbalance. There isn't a magical cure all, but you can feel so much better, and find the strenght inside yourself to get through the harder times. You deserve that, and your family deserves it too, for your issues with these problems will affect them over time in ways that you won't always be aware of. Also, you want to be a good example to them about taking responsibility for their own happiness. One day, they'll have to create lives independent from you. Teach them the best way to do that by example.

Take care.